So I haven’t posted anything for a while. Last week I was busy learning about Islam and this week I’ve been been going through the emotional wringer with this whole vocation thing. It’s amazing as soon as you care about something it is a point in which you can be totally wrecked emotionally. I don’t care so much about what I’m doing so long as I feel like I’m being used by God. What I do care about is in the larger steps making poor choices. I HATE making decisions about life. I don’t so much mind when it comes to buying things or what to where etc. But when it comes to things of larger scope, jobs, relationships, etc. I’m a basket case. I think that if God would take the reins and simply take over I would be perfectly happy. But that’s not the way things work is it? God likes to give us decisions, to take part in our own destiny. Relationships are even worse, because I feel I have even less control. I am at the mercy of the responce of the other person and ultimately there is a lot more riding on relationships than there will ever be on a job.